Assalamualaikum,
Malam2 aku sendiri.. Tak boleh lelap, pagi bgn letih, x bermaya. Kuatkan semangat, kumpul tenaga, uruskan anak ke sekolah, sediakan apa yg daya. Suami? Pandai2 lah dia uruskan diri sendiri. Sedih? Tak, just letih. Kenapa? Entah. Alasan sbb bf Aqeel sepanjang malam. It will get better? Dont know..
How long I will continue this kind of lifestyle? Maybe until this July, sbb lg 3 bln BF journey will complete. Kita assume jelah nak wean off tu kacang mcm nyanyi ABC. So whats next? Still dont know...
There is hole inside of me. Its quite big, I just cant let it go. For now I ve question myself why I cant live a fulfilling life despite of raising kids. I m just ordinary person. Raising kids not my passion, I must admit that but I solely understand that it is my top priority now that I cant just simply ignore. Can I have fulfilling life despite of the fact I m a stay at home mom? Maybe.... If I just know how..
So what I m going to do? List out things that I always have in my mind, something simple, I can just get it done, that definitely make me smile and happy. Something that out of routine. I can do it right? Of course, list out and make it happen. So that later you will not feel regret, defeated or blame your kids. Thats it!! Wish me luck..😊😊
